I’ve taken the last couple of posts down for various reasons, mostly because in meditating and praying today I’ve remembered the importance of looking at what’s going right instead of what’s going wrong.
I am humbled at the outpouring of support I received from people near and far. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Please know that I am taking care of myself and that there are people IRL who know my situation with whom I touch base daily. I had a horrible day today, but I’m okay.
I talked to my dad tonight — it’s his 61st birthday — and that helped bring me a little closer back to normal. To think that five years ago I’d been estranged from him but we now have a relationship I’d never thought possible is an amazing blessing. Hearing his voice reminded me of how far I’ve come over five years. My life, struggles and fear and the unknown and all, is a life I would have thought impossible five years ago.
This spurred me to think that I have no idea what five years in the future will look like. And that it could easily be a future that is as unthinkable now as today’s was five years ago.
Remembering this, talking to my dad, being the recipient of an outpouring of kindness… all together, it underscored how much I’ve been through already and how I’ve gotten to the other side so many times.
Thank you, deeply, to everyone who offered support and kindness. You’ve saved me in many ways today. I only hope that I can be so kind to others when I encounter someone who needs me to be. Namaste.