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December 18 – Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

In 2011, I’d like to try dating. I wanted to try this in 2010, but my feeble efforts have fallen flat, mostly because I’ve become too scared or I’ve remembered what I felt with Jack and became convinced I’d never find that again. In retrospect, “not going for it” meant I had more time to heal. But as the one-year anniversary of Jack’s death draws near, I am starting to believe that I need to put more effort into dating, lest I become too jaded and fearful to become close to someone else. So, then: in 2011, I’m going to really try dating instead of just saying I’m thinking about it and pretending that’s enough.

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