same stuff…

…different man. Argh. JS relapsed — and he’s been drinking on the sly for about a month. And, of course, he thinks this is just a road bump in our relationship. Me? I think trust is one of the most difficult — and nearly impossible — things to rebuild in a relationship, and I’m not sure I’m strong enough to take that leap of faith. Which is what it is, when you’re dealing with a chronic relapser. The bright side? I’ve already been through this — with J. — and so at least I know how to walk this path. The only problem is that I’m damned angry I ever learned that path’s topography. I’d much rather be one of those “ignorance is bliss” kind of folks when it comes to experiencing yet another lover who causes so much pain and heartache.