old (2008), Uncategorized

a ho-hum saturday…

1. Of the twelve things on my to-do list for the week, I’ve accomplished two and a half. This is a horrible track record. The one I’m most disappointed about is (still) not writing my story. My sponsor said to me today, With your emotional sobriety and the way you’ve changed your thinking and behavior, you could really be on your fourth or fifth step by now…so stop procrastinating! And so, yeah, I’ve just got to sit down and write the damn thing. Of course, no one likes doing the fourth step (where you take a fearless moral inventory of yourself), so perhaps I’m really just not wanting to deal with that, and that’s what will come up damn soon once I finish writing. Whatever. It needs to get done, and nothing like telling me I’m falling behind other people with my same ability level to get me motivated. Whatever works, I guess.

2. I did something right today. I could have gone to a different meeting, where I knew this guy I’ve got a crush on would be, but I’d promised a friend I’d get some information she needed from someone who’d be at my regular Saturday meeting. The Old Me would have said screw my friend (or at least rationalized it or found some other way to get the information) and gone to the other meeting and thrown myself at my crush, who probably isn’t interested in me at all to begin with because he’s got a lot of sobriety and, well, I don’t. But anyhow. I did the right thing, and I feel as though I should mention this because otherwise it slips away as something that’s just a random act when, in fact, it was a conscious choice to show up for my friend. It felt good. I didn’t feel deprived in the least. Yay for me!

3. This week brings a lot of concerts my way… tomorrow is Poi Dog Pondering at The Hideout; Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday, I’ll be at the Tomorrow Never Knows festival at Schubas volunteering for KEXP…look for me if you’re there. I’ll be the one with magenta and blue hair nursing a Shirley Temple and trying not to play with her new lip piercing…

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