old (2007), Uncategorized

walking in place

There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.

— Nelson Mandela

I’ve been re-watching movies: Garden State, Muriel’s Wedding, Stranger Than Fiction, All the Real Girls, The Shawshank Redemption. I’m fascinated by how differently I view things now, how the films take on both more and less meaning than I’d attributed to them before. And they are concrete examples of how much I’ve changed without realizing it: a filter through which I can gauge my own responses to crises in my life and how over the short course of 40 days things can get measurably better while feeling at my absolute worst.

The past 24 hours have been an almost minute-by-minute struggle to retain my sanity and regain my serenity, but that’s okay.