What I didn’t do: see Metric, because upon further examination of my motives, I didn’t want to go; I wanted to prove I was strong enough to go without D., but who am I kidding? I already know I’m strong enough. So I sold the tickets on Craigslist to a kid from Evanston whose girlfriend wanted to see the band.
Et cetera: I am following the breakup ground rules (which seemed silly a week ago, but not so much now) and the three don’ts (though, honestly, I’m not tempted to ‘do’ any of the ‘don’ts’). I am acting in positive ways borne out of my own needs, feelings, and boundaries, and not in reaction or anticipation of anything anyone else — least of all, D. — does. And I am, in ten minutes, going to take a bath. Good night.