When N. asked me how I was doing today, what I came up with was completely spent and totally exhausted. And he pointed out that at least I am not lonely, depressed, desperate, angry, spiteful, or otherwise overwhelmed with negative energy. And he is right about that. It’s time for me to be kind to myself, starting with tonight: turning off my computer and watching a Netflix movie and falling asleep by midnight for the first time in many weeks. Of course I’m tired — and that’s a good sign.
My headache is back — no thanks to the excessive screeching in this afternoon’s press opening of The Crucible at The Steppenwolf — and this evening marks the first time all week I’ve eaten more than a bagel for dinner. I’ve lost ten pounds in two weeks, and I woke up this morning with a huge zit (perfect, considering I had an eyebrow appointment). I’m tired and unmotivated and completely drained of any impetus to do anything but watch While You Were Out outtakes on TLC.